Ava De Grás

In a crowded room,

feeling all alone.

Struggling to connect,

in a world unknown.

But deep down inside,

there's a fire burning bright.

Yearning for connection,

to make everything right.

Inside out, 

can't you see.

The silent cries, 

the plea to be free.

In the depths of our souls,

emotions collide.

Longing for understanding,

on this emotional ride.

Words they stumble, 

conversations hault.

Every interaction feels like a fault.

But underneath the surface,

there's a story to tell.

Aching for someone to break the shell.

Inside out,

in the silent screams.

Are dreams of connection and hopes in beams.

In the depths of our hearts,

the desire holds,

to be seen and heard,

as our true selves unfold.

Can't you see the pain, 

hidden in the smile.

The longing for a friend,

even for a while.

But in the midst of it all,

there's strength to find.

To embrace vulnerability,

and leave no one behind.

Inside out,

in the quiet dispair.

Is a heart that yearns, 

for someone to care.

Through the highs and lows, 

we'll rise above.

Creating a world where 

everyone feels loved.

Inside out,

beneath the disguise,

is a soul that sees 

through your eyes.

Together we'll journey 

hand in hand.

Creating connections,

that forever expand.

Hidden shadows,

beneath the neon glow.

Whispers lost in the 

cities ebb and flow.

Aching for a touch,

in the cold of night.

Searching for a connection, 

to make things right.

In a sea of faces,

lost in a crowd,

longing for a voice to speak out loud.

But deep within,

a flame starts to ignite 

Burning with a passion,

ready to take flight.

In the midst of the chaos,

we find our way.

Through the trails and tribulations,

we will not stray.

With hearts unred,

we'll rise above embracing our strength spreading love.

Through the bustling streets where dreams collide.

A heart beats louder,

refusing to hide.

With every step taken,

a story unfolds.

Revealing the strength 

that once was untold.

In the depths of solitude, 

a phoenix rises.

Breaking free from chains,

no longer compromises.

Embracing the journey,

with courage and might.

A soul that's ready, 

to embrace the light.

In the heart of the night, 

under the stars soft light.

A phoenix spreads its wings, 

ready for flight.

With a fiery spirit,

and a will so so strong,

it sings it's triumphant,

victory song.

So let the night sky witness,

the transformation within.

From a whisper to a roar,

let the journey begin.

No longer defined by the shadows cast,

But with the resilience found,

when facing the past.

Now we've journeyed

from the inside out.

No more whispers,

only shouts.

With hearts aflame,

in the moonlit night.

We've found our way,

we've taken flight.

From the inside out.

We've become anew, 

stronger, braver, 

and oh so true.

The phoenix song,

a triumphant shout.

This is what life's all about,

from the inside out.

Trying to search for the clues in my mind's sham spot

Guess that's just the darcy in me

So stupid to wonder 

Too clueless to even mind

Yet still confused as to why?

My face seems to cover the arts of this erasmus mindset

Pure rumination

So greek 

Getting weird sensations

Must be the constellations aligning 

Trying to form some kind of something 

Crinkling shadows

Surrounding the perimeter that's within 

Lurching in which it now lingers

Curious, speechless 

Perhaps I'll just shut my own mouth

Got brains like an atom

Going strong now left devolving 

Was thinking but now my thought just slipped away

Pacing like some kind of ghost

Sedated by all these delusions 

Now pale as the ghost

Late nights normally work 

But tonight is different 

Hit, hurt, shoot me 

All you want to

Nothing is going to save me 

Don't got much F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Furious, Ridiculous, Innocent

pure Ethic 

Nothing Doesn't Suprise me

Curious, speechless 

Perhaps I'll just shut my own mouth

Got brains like an atom

Going strong now left devolving 

Something doesn't feel right 

Something feels off 

Words are key to lyrics 

Lyrics just get me nowhere nowadays 

What am I even doing?

The darcy inside me is hiding something far more valuable

Transcending as I write down these words

Not something you and I would know anyway

Thought this was an act of character 

Clearly not 

Just an hallucinating moment in time

My heart is fuller when you are near

But my heart turns frozen when you're not close by

Your smile is the perfect glow 

I could hold a starry eyed stare 

Not a glare

But a loving stare 

At you but for you 

As time drifts on by 

With you in my life 

Without you,

I may as well just be nothing

Be gone with the wind 

Oh but your smile is our everything

My happiness is your happiness 

My smile and your smile 

Is the glimmer of something only we both know

My heart is burning 

Aflame that ignites 

Only when you're right beside

You're still in my heart, no matter how far we're apart from each other, 

Shining bright like a star, you’re my guiding light,

Poignant my love

Even when we’re apart, you’re still the star in my heart,  

Love lingers on, never truly gone

Just want to hold you tight

Never let you go

Never let go

Forever my love 

Please stay for a little while longer 

Wait for my love to grow stronger.

In my heart, you're still yearning in dreams that we can make real.

We're standing close, oh the air feels thick,  

But our words, they seem to be caught in our throats,  

Yeah, it's making us sick.  

In this awkwardness, I can’t bear to look in your eyes,  

Lord, this silence is burning heavy,  

Now I’m wishing for courage, but I don’t feel ready.  

But you, you’re ready.  

Every time you make me smile,

I tend to shed a tear inside my bones

I keep having wicked dreams,

like what if we held each others hands?

Would that make you want me more?

Will you be, will you be my home,

You know I'm keeping you like an oath 

Embracing your warmth is such a glow 

I hope you don't go

Wrapped up, in love 

See the stars glisten, all those constellations sticking together like a puzzle

Oh, I hope you stay

I said I hope you stay

Please stay for a little while longer 

Wait for my love to grow stronger.

In my heart, you're still yearning in dreams that we can make real.

If you stay, I'll take your hand,  

We’ll figure everything out together,  

Even if we’re not in love.  

As long as you’re by my side,  

Everything will feel just right. 

The door bangs shut.

"There's somebody here?"

It may be the wind, 

blowing through an open cracked 

window.

What if it isn't?

What if,

BANG !!!

It's a...

There's no time to turn back,

there's no time to escape.

For I've seen it rush by,

I've heard her cry.

Seen her white cloak, 

and her long black silky hair.

All those tears rolling down, 

on her pale white face.

Maybe it's just me making this up.

Maybe she's right beside me, 

as I curl myself up, hiding. 

In hope she'll never find me.

As I hope,

I peak out to try and see if she's still

there.

Not a trace in sight,

she has vanished in plain sight.

I won't dissappear,

I'll just be hiding.

I won't be there, 

I'll be right where I started.

You'll see stars,

and then you'll be crying for countless 

of hours.

Wondering how will it end?

You'll see darkness, 

then you'll see a little dim of light at the end of the long hall.

You will tell yourself that you, you're okay?

You'll be totally fine. 

But you're not "fine".

No, really your not.

You'll be counting those stars,

every step of the way.

You will be crying your heart out, 

even if you don't get anywhere.

At least you're trying and not dying.

You're simply just hurt, 

you are deeply saddened, 

still crying, though.

Although you're particularly vulnerable.

Then you stop crying,

for a little while.

All of a sudden, 

you're back to square one:

It's called "depression".

You can't get everything all at once.

It takes time, 

Where's the time?

I don't have a watch.

Where's the clock?

What is she at?

Pressure?

No pressure.

No problem,

oh, we have a problem.

Oh, boy, do we have a problem.

She's listening to music with 

her headphones on.

Hoping she can relax, 

fingers cross she doesn't cry, again.

She's listening to her favourite music.

Now, she's laughing,

she's so happy.

Or is she?

She's fading, fading away.

"Check her pulse?"

She doesn't have one,

she's gone.

We've lost her, again.

My brain isn't functioning, 

as I walk through the gardens.

The weather is humid,

well it must be a good sign.

There are scenes like no other, 

all's green and calm around.

Where there are views like no other,

the lake is still at last.

Not a breeze in sight,

almost got sunburnt.

Cause this is Ireland after all,

nothing ever lasts.

Birds singing so loud,

they may wake up the water monster.

Deers braking branches, 

like they're trying to hide.

Don't be so shy, 

as there's a cricket nearby.

You're too caught up 

in nature's calling.

You settled of by the morning.

As night falls, 

you won't be back till the next morning.

Isn't it just so stunning, 

the sunset,

setting by the lake.

Isn't it romantic, 

that it could be your first date.